I've been meditating on stuff like this for a while and I can't quite find the right glue to make all of it stick together because there are so many pieces to it.
At some point in a man's life, he has to realize that physicality (love making) isn't something that one just arbitrarily shares w/ the world of females (plural). I liken it to how MOST females cherish their sex and refuse to just share it w/ every Tom, Dick, and Harry. The inner peace... I can't quite describe it but it's sobering and quite new. Not that one doesn't look but the actual lust and desire are nil and the need becomes almost non-existant.

The only existant desire is that which makes one want to give it to one and only one, that special one, and deny others who aren't worthy.
I think I'm coming to grips w/ my eldering man-age. When younger, all day every day, I wanted and needed sex lol. Middle aged, it became less of a priority and I actually began to communicate w/ women while looking into their eyes and seeing them as an equal human being and NOT going immediately to their breasts, hips, thighs, calves, face, trying to bed every last one of them down by plotting, etc. And now that I'm really eldering lol, I really seriously have come to a point where I <b>genuinely</b> care about a female's well-being w/out inclusivity of sex. I care. I really do care as we were taught to care for others.
Howsinever lol, God knew what he was doing when he confined me in purgatory on the island of the state I was reared and currently reside in. The <b><u>only</u></b> place in the USofA where He KNEW I had a strong disdain that is real for local females while also being able to remotely communicate w/ what I call "better" females from afar. If I eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeever have a chance to beg, buy, kidnap lol, bargain for, coerce, compel, et al chocolate_top, Schaaaaaaa-moke, Xtacy-Hell, blublood, missusjones, Pretti Forti, et al who are remote, your vagina will know for sure-for sure that my tongue, fingers, ears

and my penis were doing great wonders betwixt lol your legs. You won't be able to walk right for a lil' while. I'll continue to save this.